The Bastard

"志恒非人" is back.
Thats right, people will kill me for saying this but here goes anyway-

I DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO BUT I FEEL LIKE SHIT

yea so fook that, i miss the days of chionging... all the adrenaline rushing, fears, realization that there may be a chance that you cant hand up something and sleepless nights.

I may have alot of time on my hands now but i dont sleep much, my projects are mostly on hold/nothing to do, in fact there are some that i feel... that there really is nothing much i can help out with. I dont know what to do.

i fooking hate that, knowing that i am "useless" even for a moment. I've exprienced enough of that back in Taiwan to last me a lifetime.

To all whos chionging out there right now on monday night (above date), i wished i was part of it, that i can help out in any way, that there are things actually for me to do.

I dont have to "flip-a-coin" to know this: I'd rather be chionging to a point that my body gives way, fall sick, go hospital and all then to remain dormant, useless.