Long Vacation
Yes shit happens.
NTU has just rejected my application.
Any alternatives? No.
Any hopes left? Nil.
Any anger, disappointment, depression? Maybe.
I'm done and through thinking negatively, so i guess friends can relax.
I mean what can a person do, at the very lowest point of his life when his only hope of a slightly better future is shattered?
Complain? Blame? Take it out on himself? Go on a self destructive pattern that only makes things worst?
Well i guess not me.
I got through that thinking stage back when i was rejected from OCS. (Refer to older posts)
I've got no time to be doing all the above... guess its part and parcel of growing up.
You get numb.
Shit gets thrown in your face, you take it.
Salt gets rubbed into your wound, good, the pain wakes you up.
I guess im the world's biggest push over at this point.
but fuck that, im just like that.
But several things did happen that helped in cushioning the sudden drop in morale.
Kudos to Tommy, for being a good friend, sharing his life story and making me appreciate mine.
Thanks to Lam Heng, ever cheerful,
Victor, Desmond et al
But something unexpected did happen.
I dreamt, of her, instead of who i'd thought i'd dream about.
though that world very much like reality was falling apart around me, she was there.
Well not doing anything at all, just hanging around, just... there.
and her being there, well it brought... comfort, if thats the word
and everything was fine, just like before
The her then,
the her before all the confusion.
Having her around, that rocked.
In the mean time, im back in the fucked up reality.
I guess i'll be taking one hell of a long vacation.
See you when im done
NTU has just rejected my application.
Any alternatives? No.
Any hopes left? Nil.
Any anger, disappointment, depression? Maybe.
I'm done and through thinking negatively, so i guess friends can relax.
I mean what can a person do, at the very lowest point of his life when his only hope of a slightly better future is shattered?
Complain? Blame? Take it out on himself? Go on a self destructive pattern that only makes things worst?
Well i guess not me.
I got through that thinking stage back when i was rejected from OCS. (Refer to older posts)
I've got no time to be doing all the above... guess its part and parcel of growing up.
You get numb.
Shit gets thrown in your face, you take it.
Salt gets rubbed into your wound, good, the pain wakes you up.
I guess im the world's biggest push over at this point.
but fuck that, im just like that.
But several things did happen that helped in cushioning the sudden drop in morale.
Kudos to Tommy, for being a good friend, sharing his life story and making me appreciate mine.
Thanks to Lam Heng, ever cheerful,
Victor, Desmond et al
But something unexpected did happen.
I dreamt, of her, instead of who i'd thought i'd dream about.
though that world very much like reality was falling apart around me, she was there.
Well not doing anything at all, just hanging around, just... there.
and her being there, well it brought... comfort, if thats the word
and everything was fine, just like before
The her then,
the her before all the confusion.
Having her around, that rocked.
In the mean time, im back in the fucked up reality.
I guess i'll be taking one hell of a long vacation.
See you when im done
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