Down, Down
Apparently "rock bottom" wasnt rock bottom.
Besides screwing up my application to NTU, there's still so many areas you can go down.
Had to walk 32km again, not that im complaining. Well maybe i am complaining, for real this time, not the joking kind. Well went through with that and all already, so whats there to say anyway.
Screwed up abit of my COS duty, well just abit. But still that wasnt something that would usually happen. Apologies to the BOS. Jobs given to me these days just hang in the air, getting things done seems... difficult. Procrastination on the other hand seems so comfortable. Getting green eyed, complaining, comparing, things that i'd not usually do seems to have a high frequency.
Fell in skating today. Again something that would not happen, well at least not in this magnitude.
Basically my right knee is a red mess.
Guess its goodbye halcyon days. Never thought i would be saying this but, I have no mood for anything now. Just wanna retreat, think about things, sorts things out.
Hopefully something bad enough is around the corner to slap me back into myself, cause at this rate, i dont think i'd have the strength to even bother anymore and i guess ill just rot away.
Im gonna need alot of time to get back on my feet, both literally and metaphorically.
Besides screwing up my application to NTU, there's still so many areas you can go down.
Had to walk 32km again, not that im complaining. Well maybe i am complaining, for real this time, not the joking kind. Well went through with that and all already, so whats there to say anyway.
Screwed up abit of my COS duty, well just abit. But still that wasnt something that would usually happen. Apologies to the BOS. Jobs given to me these days just hang in the air, getting things done seems... difficult. Procrastination on the other hand seems so comfortable. Getting green eyed, complaining, comparing, things that i'd not usually do seems to have a high frequency.
Fell in skating today. Again something that would not happen, well at least not in this magnitude.
Basically my right knee is a red mess.
Guess its goodbye halcyon days. Never thought i would be saying this but, I have no mood for anything now. Just wanna retreat, think about things, sorts things out.
Hopefully something bad enough is around the corner to slap me back into myself, cause at this rate, i dont think i'd have the strength to even bother anymore and i guess ill just rot away.
Im gonna need alot of time to get back on my feet, both literally and metaphorically.
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