Minutes to Brunei

So we've come thus far.

There are many things hanging in the air right now, like how its gonna be like over there, will i come out unscathed just like before...

hmm but what tops the list, right now, in my head is something more mundane.
something that has dragged on for ages. Gone before but back now... of all times to bug me.

I dont think i'll ever muster the courage to materialize the words in my head though.
because the balance is so fragile, one wrong move would mean oblivion, or maybe relief. while no move would mean, well whats been happening for the past 2-3 years, silence and perpetual guessing and head cracking.

so until i find the courage to say it out, i guess it'll suffice to be like before.

I've never said it before but, Thank you for giving me strength in all the times of hardship.

Catch you when im back, seeya.